Missionary Girlfriends*

I got a letter from my Elder today and he wrote about this past Sunday's Fireside. He said that the speaker asked all the missionaries a few questions and to stand if it applied to them. It went like this:

"How many of you here like the MTC food?"

*Kalani didn't stand Lol

"How many of you think that the food will get better once you get out in the mission field?"

*Kalani stood up

"How many of you have gotten Dear John'ed?"

*Kalani, of course stayed seated :)"

"And my last question, how many of you have that 'special someone' waiting for you back home?"

*Kalani stood up...proudly, duh! ;)

Then the guy went out

to say "You must be the same missionaries who think that the food will get better in the mission field."

RUDEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I was soooo mad! Kalani went on to write how sad he felt and how he wanted to punch the guy in the face. Lol But apparently that guy got Dear John'ed and so his whole talk was based on why there should be no such thing as Missionary Girlfriends/Boyfriends. He told all the missionaries that come Monday, which was the next day, that whatever they got in the mail was going to determine their relationship with that special person. Kalani told me he was so nervous that he didn't even want to check the mail</3 I dont know why he listened to that fwam! Annoying! But anyways he built up the courage to finally do it and when he got there he just started crying. Why? Well because he got my 1 month package that I sent:') I was so upset that I missed the deadline on Saturday because that was  when he hit 1 month remember? and the place I dropped it off do same day delivery to the MTC. Anyways, since they already delivered for that day they told me he would for sure get it on Monday. So what are the odds right? I was making a fit because he didnt get it on his actual 1 month, but little did I know he needed it more on Monday:') While other missionaries were worried about their letters from their girlfriend, analyzing every word they said, mine got a package like a boss! Lol And all his worries went away<3 God truly does work in mysterious ways* So now I want to write some things you should NEVER tell a missionary girlfriend or even her missionary!

1. Don't ever tell her that it's not going to work out! Especially if you JUST met her. Judging her off the bat is not helpful and she will either walk away in tears or be like me and punch you in the face.

2. Don't already assume that you know her and then tell her a story of how you were Dear John'ed or how you know someone who has. Frankly, she could care less and that is the last story she would ever want to hear and that would be the last words you would ever say to her.

3. Don't tell her that she's not going to last or that she will find someone else! First off, you don't know her heart and its capabilities. You are selfish if you tell her this. It's offensive!

4. Don't tell her that things will change between the both of them. It's not like she hasn't heard this before and in her eyes, the only way things will change, if BY SOME FREEKIN MIRACLEdo, it will only change by growing more.

5. Don't ever give her scenarios"If another dream guy comes along, and he steals your heart, will you still wait for your missionary!?" I cannot tell you how many "What If's" questions I have gotten, even before Kalani left! If another guy comes along, whoopdeedoolah! That will never change my feelings for my missionary<3 and I will never give any other guy the chance to 'sweep me off my feet.'

6. Don't ever tell her that she needs to write off her missionary because she's a distraction. You have no idea what he or she needs and you have no idea what their situation may be so shaaaddddap.

This leads me to my next statement

7. Don't, I repeat, DON'T, ever tell her that she's a distraction! You don't know one thing about their relationship so please keep this comment to yourself.

You're probably thinking "Well rules are rules and these types of girls are so naive and blah blah blah" Like I said, we've heard it before. I read a talk on Missionary Girlfriends and if its good to have them or not and this gentlemen said: "I don't believe in missions having missionaries break up with their special person. Infact, I believe in missionaries praying together with their 'other half' and asking God to help them figure out their next move. The real question is this: 'What makes you a better missionary? Staying with her and having her support or leaving her and moving on?'" So ask your missionary this and I hope you think about this in a whole new light. I'm sorry if I offended anyone, I just needed to vent it out somewhere. All I ask is that you please reconsider your advice to us missionary girlfriends before you start handing them out. If you're not here to support us let us know and we will be glad to remove you from our lives:)

Every story is different, I understand that and I understand that some of these relationships really don't work out but I know with all my heart that mine will. Call me naive, gullible, stupid whatever...but when that day comes where I walk hand in hand out of the La'ie Temple sealed to my best-friend, Elder Fitisemanu, you're going to think back and say "Wow, she was right." <3

I Think I'm Going To Cry*

Today is the 21st of April....My Elder reported on the 21st of March...which means today marks 1 month!<3 Hence, I think I'm going to cry:') Lol I never ever thought that I was going to make it but I did and I couldn't be more happier:')

I remember crying at school to friends and people who over heard our conversation would say "Awww you're waiting for a missionary!? How long has he been out? Sounds to me like he's been out a while!" I just look at them, trying not to cry, and reply "only 3 days!!!!" Lol Now at least I got 1 month down and 23 more to go<3 

I have so many count down methods its not even funny. Lol Actually, no it is, hahaha. I count down actual months (21st of the month), I count fast-sundays, I count weeks, and last but not least, I count General Conferences<3 :') So all in all I have 23 more '21st of the months', almost 22 more fast sundays, 100 more weeks, and 3 more General Conferences<3 :') 

I think I'm going to cry...:')

On another note, my grandma bought me a brand new CTR ring as a graduation present and I absolutely am in love with the cute thing! I wear them both on my ring finger to serve as a daily reminder. My Promise Ring to remind me of my promise to my missionary & my CTR Ring to remind me of my promise to the Lord<3 I cannot wait to join his army and serve a full-time mission!:')

It's been a hard but worthwhile month and I am soooo glad it's finally over. I know that if I keep doing what is need to be done, keep my eye single to my missionary and the Lord, that these next 23 months will have NOTHING on me!:') I love my Elder Fitisemanu and I cannot wait to see what these next months have in store for me<3

Taking My Mark

As graduation approached I believed that only my mom, my sister Brooke and my cousin Fuli would be coming from Hawai'i as well as my grandparents to attend. Months before I had wished that all 4 of my brothers AND my dad could come but as time got closer my mom said that it wasn't going to happened. 

The night came to where my mom was to come in and I was able to get dropped off at the airport to greet my mom and Fuli. They came down the escalator and I was in tears already because of something that I had saw when I first got there and don't worry I'll talk about that in another post:) But I helped her with luggage and my mom gave me the phone to talk to my dad. I expressed how much I wish that he and my brothers could be there but said that I would see him in just a few weeks and that I couldnt wait for that. As conversation continued my mom called my name and I turned around and there they were:') My brothers and my dads, smiling and waiting for me to hug and cry to them<3 It was an awesome surprise and I still get goosebumps thinking about it<3 :')

Graduation happened 2 days later and it was amazing. For those of you who don't know, I attended LDS Business College and double majored for the past 3 years. When I finally dropped one, I realized that I still needed to stay an extra year, but enough about that:) The President of our school is President Richards and I swear he's going to be the next General Authority or something! Lol His talk was amazing and he spoke on how he was a swimmer in High school and how there were timers and judges and how swimmers take their mark and prepare for the swim of a lifetime. He applied that to our life and said that this is us taking our mark and that we will have our own personal judges and timers and then he wished us the best of luck<3 It was an awesome talk!

We were fortunate to have Brother Christofferson and Brother Holland of the 12 as well as Brother Hollands wife, present at graduation and their counsel to us was too amazing to explain and put into words<3 When time came to receive my diploma I saw my classmates and friends giving the General Authorities handshakes and I couldnt wait for my turn! I got up, shook President Richards hand and took my picture, trying not to cry. Then I turned around and was greeted by Sister Holland, instead of shaking her hand I hugged her:') Lol And I did that to Brother Holland, Brother Christofferson and everyone else down the line<3 After commencement people came up to me asking "Hey aren't you the girl who straight up hugged all the General Authorities!?:)" Hahaha Dang straight that was me!

Later that night my family held a get together in my honor that consisted of my closest family and friends, 200 people plus showed up lol.

Now that graduation is over its really starting to hit. Its different from graduating from High school, thats for sure. I think the only thing that I am no doubt happy about is...I dont have to do another assignment for at least 2 freekin years! Lol Yayyy for serving missions right?:') Although I miss LDSBC like crazy I will never forget the things that I learned there. I have grown not just physically and emotionally, but most of all spiritually and I think thats whats most important<3 I cannot wait to put the things that I have learned to use as I journey forward to bigger and better things<3 Here is to new goals, new challenges, new experiences and new blessings. I dont know what tomorrow may bring but I hope its good because starting now, I will be taking my mark<3 :')

(yes, I had to wear my Elders tag under my gown, so that I felt that he was there with me:'))

Still Here :)

Hey Everyone! I am still alive, still breathing, still going crazy lol.

Life has been so busy and I kinda like it:) It really helps get my mind off the wait. So when I finally have some down time which would probably be next week I'll update everyone then:) Until then here has whats been going on<3

1. My Brothers surprised me for graduation as well as my ENTIRE family:')

2. I graduated from LDSBC!<3

3. I am now a Certified Medical Office Assistant!

4. I got flowers from a random guy at school (details later, maybe) Lol

5. Im going to Disneyland today and tomorrow!

So can you see how I am just keeping busy! Lol My family was not lying when they told Kalani that they were going to distract me from missing him so much<3 Well people I gotta go, Mickey Mouse is calling<3 :') 

Xoxo; Ayesha

Ring Fingers*

The day before Valentines in 2011, I was driving back from a rugby tournament in Las Vegas. I was scared that I wasn't going to make it back in time to spend our first Valentines together, but I did<3 We talked about giving eachother promise rings when we lived apart a few months before that, but that convo slowly died. Little did he know, I remembered it & bought him his ring when I went back home for Christmas Break<3 Yes, than I hid it for 2 months until Valentines.

We shared a full day of fun memories! He even took me to build a bear (one of my dream dates) and we made a monkey who we named Marley Fitisemanu<3 Lol he sings Love Bug By. Jonas Brothers and also makes Ooh-Ooh-Ah-Ah sounds. Lol AND he took me on a horse carriage ride<3 :') It was such a great day!

That night he surprised me with dinner at the roof of the Joseph Smith building which overlooked the temple and it was breathtaking and perfect<3 Towards the end of dinner I could tell that he was getting nervous and was moving around a lot. Finally he looked at me and said, "Baby, you know that I love you right? and that you are the best thing that has ever happened to me. I dont know what I would ever do without you..." I just grabbed his hands and smiled. In the mean time he opened up his coat jacket and pulled out a cute silver box. As he slid it over to me, tears filled my eyes as I opened up the tiny box and there it was, the cutest, prettiest little ring. He began to say "Remember when we talked about giving eachother promise rings last year? Well I thought  today would've been the perfect time to get it for you:') I hope its not too much because I know you were worried about it looking too much like an engagement ring." I just cried and told him that it was perfect<3 I can still remember the feelings that I felt and now I cant stop looking at them as I type this:')

He went onto say: "Being that this is a promise ring I wanted to make you promises with it<3 I promise to make you the happiest girl everyday that were together which I am hoping is for eternity." He started crying too. "I promise to love you with all that I have and more and I promise that if you stick with me I will treat you like the Queen you deserve to be:')<3 I promise you that I will leave the world before I leave you<3" We both just sobbed:') It was truly such a sentimental moment and I wish I remembered all the words that were spoken but those were the main things<3 :''')

After a kiss & thank you, I told him that I was so sorry because I didn't get him anything (hehe) but he was totally okay with it and I thought to myself "THIS is why I love him<3"I asked to be excused and then ran to get his present ready in the restroom. Lol I got back to the table and then without saying a word I put the gift bag on the table and he was so shocked! His face was priceless. Lol He opened up the gold box slowly and when I knew he saw the ring he looked up to me and said "I knew we we're meant to be<3" He put the ring on and it fit perfectly, as mine did. I then made my promises. "I promise to love you beyond your past and imperfections:') I promise to support you and be the backbone you need in anything you set your heart to. Most of all, I promise that if you keep your promises in keeping me by your side, I promise that I will spend the rest of my life proving to you that you made the right choice in picking me<3 :')"

With each letter & email that I receive from Elder Fitisemanu, I feel that more promises are added on and I love it<3 As I think back a year ago on that day we made our promises, I can honestly say that til this day, our promises still remain strong<3 :') Why? Well because we are both reminded of it every day  when we look at our Ring Fingers<3 :')

Remember What We're Working For*

Elder Fitisemanu has been out for a total of 19 days which may seem little to you but to a MG (Missionary Girlfriend) like me, that's pretty much forever! So far I have received emails and letters from him and I just love how he always, no matter what, tries to make time for me even out in the mission field<3

With those emails and letters, he and I both end it the same way and yes, I'll share it with you, consider yourself a special reader;) Lol So at the end of our emails/letters we always, without a doubt close with:

"Remember What We're Working For...Eternity<3 :')"

I've been having some bad days lately and I found myself crying more, praying harder and questioning a lot. I feel like my Elder knows exactly how I am feeling, or maybe he's feeling it around the same time and then shoots a letter or email my way letting me know he still loves and misses me and is coming back for me<3 :') When I get those unexpected messages, my whole mood changes and then I see those 6 sweet words at the end: Remember What We're Working For, Eternity<3

When I truly think about that saying, it really puts it into perspective for me that these bad days and even good days is all a part of our goal to Eternity<3 Every lesson that I learn, every experience that I encounter, every minute-day-month-year that I wait for the next 2 years, is for OUR eternity:') And that is what we're working for.

I know the things I go through, hard or easy, that it is all to make me become the person my Heavenly Father wants me to become. If I remain strong and push through, I know that everything else will fall into place. I truly believe that good things fall apart so that better things can fall together and I know that things WILL get better<3 I have an amazing family, supportive friends, the gospel and a handsome missionary<3 What else is there to love?:') For all you MG's, this is just a storm befor a rainbow* Remember what YOU'RE working for and ask yourself if it's really worth it and will it get you into the eternitites? Because I know it will for me<3

I love you Elder Fitisemanu, Working 2 years to eternity:')

On another note, I sent my missionary his first care package! :) The post man said he should get it by his P-Day tomorrow<3 Since graduation is this Friday:') That was the whole plan! His package consisted of our favorite candy, bed sheets, a photo of me in my grad gown, my tassle, 2 invites to my graduation and party, and then a t-shirt from my school that he can wear for P-days and then a tie with my school logo that he can wear on Friday while he's at the MTC so he can think of me that day<3 :') 1 Package down, 23 more to go! <3 Love my missionary!

Heartbeats*

2 weeks down, really? Bittersweet for sure! Bitter because I feel like its been longer than that and then Sweet because I didnt think that I would make it this far without him. Lol Looking at the brighter things...2 weeks closer to coming home, right?:')

People who know Kalani and I they would know that we are seriously joined at the hip. When we first started dating we found out that we shared the same heartbeat<3 Believe it or not, dont be a hater:) We have the same scars and most of our birthmarks in the same places. Its kinda creepy, but a good kind creepy<3 If thats possible lol We would finish eachothers sentences, and shared the relationship where we exchange one look and we would both know what the other was feeling or thinking<3

I'll tell you one story to show how well we know eachother and think alike lol So I flew back to California for his farewell and I wanted a new outfit for it so he took me shopping:') We found the perfect top and now of course a girl needed earrings! Lol We searched high and low for them and we went to Forever 21 and looked throughout the entire accessories section! We had a lot of maybe's and no's. Kalani was on one side of this section and I was on the other. I picked up a pair of earrings and just when I was about to say that I think   I found the pair, HE said it! Lol So we met half way to show eachother our earrings and what do you know, we picked up the SAME exact pair:') We looked up at eachother and smiled and then hugged like stupid idiots...but CUTE stupid idiots:') Lol

I don't think no one will understand our love, well because its ours and I really dont expect people to understand it. But I do expect people to respect it. I was going to make to make this whole post a rant lol BUT as I pondered about this weekend and as I read Kalani's testimony through emails and letters, I humbled myself and realized that I am too good for that and my time is too precious to be wasted on minor temporal things that I know wont get me into the eternities<3 I love my missionary too much to spend energy on this petty stuff. 


This is for US and no one else:') <3 I love you Elder Fitisemanu and I know you're going to hate me for posting that photo of us but you look fine! Lol Xoxo To our heartbeats, because I KNOW these 2 years are going to be worth it<3

General Conference 2012*

Can I just say that I feel so incomplete for not blogging! Lol Happy April everyone! :) Okay so is it just me or was this years General Conference freekin amaziziziziziziziiiing!? :) Lol Love love love it!<3 My mom was able to get me tickets for both morning sessions and I was so happy to have the opportunity to go:') Being that I live in walking distance of the conference center, I count that as an everyday blessing<3

Saturday mornings session was by far my favorite:') and yes, I cried the entire session! Lol Tell me not, every talk that session was either about missionaries or strengthening families? :') Dallin H. Oaks really hit home when he talked about sacrafice and how serving a mission is a sacrafice but its a visible strength<3 I cant wait for the day someone questions why I want to serve a mission and I can respond with " Knowing what my Savior did for me, I feel privledged to give just a piece of what he gave me:')"

I think we all have had that time where we never took advantage of GC and then one GC we watch or attend, changes our perspective forever<3 The 182nd General Conference was it for me<3 :') If I could go on and on about conference I would lol But if there is one thing about conference that I want you to remember, its not STOP IT. Lol Its this:

"Do it for the future, HE wants you to have." I think that we can all remember this as we go about our every day lives:) Is what you're doing going to get you into the eternities? If there is any doubt in your heart and mind, I invite to think about the closest distance between a question and an answer. Its your knees and the floor<3 Pray and I promise, you'll live your life becoming the person our Heavenly Father knows you can be:') <3

You already know I took the BEST notes;) lol