Fa'a Malosi Love*

Fa'a Malosi means to be strong in the Samoan language<3 & that was what my 2 Elders wrote me! Yes 2! Elder Wesley whos been like my brother since booger days:') & then of course from Elder Fitisemanu<3

I got home last night and my letter from Kalani was waiting for me:') Apparently this letter was supposed to have come first and then the letter with the quarters next<3 This letter had the surprise for me and I couldn't be more happy:') He gave me one of his nametags! He says that he was so excited to send it too<3 How sweet is he:') 

Another surprise was he sent me his SD memory card with pictures and a surprise at the end:') <3 Yes, I'm a happy MG<3

And guess what!? He was made DISTRICT LEADER the second night he was there! :') How crazy huh?<3 I am so proud of him! He says that even though he and his companion dont really see eye to eye, he loves being around the other Elders in his district, especially Elder Iosua and Elder Puaga, because they all have girls waiting for them too:') I love that he has some kind of support, because I tell him about mine all the time:') 

I love sending and getting love through the mail<3 I feel our relationship getting stronger and stronger with each passing day! Its crazy:') Here are some of his updated photos:') <3

My Elder at his Best! <3 Lol

This is him and his new roommates:') Can you guess which ones his companion?;') Lol

Him with his district pointing to their mission:') <3

This is Elder Puaga, who will be serving back in California where Kalani is from and he has a girl waiting for him too<3

This is Elder Iosua, who also has a girl waiting for him ;')<3

Before he went into the MTC, he and I took a photo there :'( <3

If you would like to see more photos of him please visit his blog: 

http://elderkfitisemanu.blogspot.com/

I feel so blessed to be on this journey with this Elder of mine<3 Seeing photos of him gets me excited for MY 18 month mission:') <3 I know it wont be easy and at times I'll feel like giving up but I will always remember my Elders saying: "Fa'a malosi my love<3" or "Be strong my love."

And here is my first video from my Elder:') <3 Get the tissues ready!

I Love You Elder Fitisemanu<3

My 2 Year Mission*

Guess who danced like that^ facial expressions & all when she checked her mail last night?!? Haha Yup, thats right..I did! :') As any other Girlfriend of a missionary, getting a simple email or letter can not only make your day, but they make you do things you never knew you could!Lol Welp, with that being said, I GOT MY FIRST LETTER in the mail<3 and heres the story:

I got home and skipped/half ran to the mail box! Lol I opened it and there it was waiting for me, who wouldve thought that a small envelope could open the flood gates of tears. :') I began to walk back to my apartment and then my phone rang to notify me of a message. Being high off of getting a letter the day after his P-day, I didnt pay too much attention to it but the feeling kept forcing me to check it, so I did. I stopped in shock and began to sob, it was another email from him<3 What a koinkadink right? I just couldnt stop crying. I ran to my room, locked the door and opened his letter. Crying was a must and I knew I was gonna cry ugly so I wanted to save anyone, esp. my family from the sight of that. Lol He told me how the MTC is amazing and he loves P-days because he can go to the temple & write everyone back. He informed me about an investigator that he and his companion are teaching and says that his testimony is inspiring and he hopes to baptize him while he's at the MTC:') How good huh?<3 Speaking of testimonies, Elder Fitisemanu bears his to me every chance he gets and omg, tears again! Truly strengthens my own<3

So before I got the letter I felt that there was something heavy and when I opened it I saw that it was 2 quarters! Lol Of course I paid no attention to it, even when Kalani said: The 50 cents goes with my letter, so read the letter first lol Don't spend it either Please! I love you<3 muah! haha, he's so cute. So anyways, the moment you all were waiting for: "WHAT ARE THE QUARTERS ABOUT!?" Here's what he wrote<3

"Baby! I have the craziest story to tell you:) While I was doing my laundry I was thinking a lot about us, about you, and I felt Satan come into my thoughts and worry me about you. I dont want you getting 'distracted' but I went and bought a pink lemonade trying to get my mind out of the satans wraps and then I got the change which was 50 cents and guess what?? You wont believe me but I looked at the two quarters and I got all choked up. 1 quarter was from California and the other quarter was from Hawaii!:''') After I looked at it an overwhelming feeling came upon me, chasing all my doubts telling me that we ARE meant to be and that I am gonna make you my wife! Whether you like it or not;) <3 I love having the spirit with me and I can feel God confirming things to me left and right, its something you HAVE to experience my love<3 and I cant wait til you do! But yea, thats my story with the 50 cents, please dont spend it because that was sent from heaven to you and me!<3"


How crazy was that?:') What are the chances of those two coins finding its way to my Elder when he needed it the most:')<3 As I was blogging, I got a call from my cousin who told me that I have another surprise from Kalani when I get home!:') (Which wont be til later tonight after I get out of class, and yes, I'm dying!Lol) In his email he said he sent me two letters and is worried that the one that has my surprise in it is lost because I havent talked to him about it. But I think thats whats waiting for me:')<3

I feel the love of my Heavenly Father through Elder Fitisemanu and his letters/emails<3 I feel blessed to be a part of this 24 month process with one of the Lords chosen servants. I may not be wearing a missionary tag yet and I may not have a companion or all of the things that "normal" missionaries do, but this 2 year wait feels like a personal mission <3 I guess you could call it...

"My 2 Year Mission Waiting For My Full-time Missionary<3"

CA  ♥  HI

Humor Pays Off =)

I never thought of myself as a funny person, no matter how much times Kalani tells me how witty I am. Hahaha Man I crack up at myself. Lol But I think if I were to tell him what happened today he would tell me "SEE! I TOLD YOU THAT YOU WERE FUNNY BABY!!!" Haha

So for those of you who don't know, I'm interning at an Eye clinic called Wasatch Vision, in Salt Lake City Utah. Did I see myself working here ever, let alone the beginning of the year? NO! I did get offered a position up at the University of Utah, but I'll save that story for another time.:) Plus that has nothing to do with this blog post. Anyways, a patient came in and asked me to fix his glasses. Keep in mind, I have no idea what I'm doing! Lol

Anyways the patient was meuli and he brought in his palagi wife. I think they could tell that I was totally acking haha But they joked about it and found it entertaining, because you know, I'm such an entertainer ;) LOL I cracked some jokes (Things that cannot be mentioned on this blog because you probably wont find it funny!LOL) Anyways after that I managed to straighten out his glasses, put new nosepads in AND give it a good clean :) Mhmmm this interns gonna be the new DOC soon ;) hehe jk.

To make a long blog short, I gave them such a good experience that they tipped me $20! They said that they were having a bad day but I changed it all around with my 'cute charm & humor;)' hehe no lies. Of course I told them that I couldnt accept it and gave it back and then ran away before they could give it back to me but when I got back to the front, my coworkers gave me the $20 bill which they left:') How sweet huh?

Anyways, that was my funny day:) Kalani would be so proud of me, probably tell me to be a stand-up comedian or something! hahahaha k no. The things I learned at PCC, customer service is key:) I didnt come to work expecting that but I do hope to make someones day :') Its nice to have someone tell you though, really makes my day:)

Who knew that being funny could get you paid! :D Lol
On a better note, HAPPY 1 WEEK OF BEING ON A MISH TO MY ELDER<3

Confession #1

I think it's safe to say that I am a Drama Queen when it comes to Kalani Elder Fitisemanu, being on a mission. Lol Dead serious.

So lets just say for those of you who read my post yesterday--my last post--I got news for you and for those of you who didn't, GOOD, I got news for you too:) Lol Don't waste your time reading it, its just me doubting my missionary:') Lesson learned=Never EVER in a billion years, ever ever ever NEVER, doubt my Elder Fitiseamanu<3 :')

I woke up this morning with galore of textes telling me to check my email. (Guess they heard my cries yesterday too!hehe) For some reason I could see that I had 3 emails but it only showed me 2. Which forced me to get up and get ready and run to work so that I can check it:') When I got to work, I ran to the back to the DRs office and it was there...waiting for me:')

Titled as Babyyyyy!!!!:') I opened it and the tears couldnt hold themselves in :') <3 I am soooo happy and cannot believe that I let myself cry yesterday, total drama queen move of me! Lol So to clear things up, his P-days are TUESDAYS not Mondays :) Guess that means Tuesdays are my NEW favorite day, next to Sundays<3


My Elder informed me of how much he loves being out in the mission field and counceled me to read D & C 4, because that is what helps him get through those times when he misses me:') I can't stop crying. I would post the whole email he sent me but I think thats TOO personal for the both of us;) Sorry bout it. But here's just a piece of my heaven on tuesdays<3

What an amazing example from him serving the Lord<3 :') 5 more months til I can turn in my papers! :') I freekin love this guy, only a few can understand :') <3 Now that I got my happy dose for the week, I'm gonna go back and reread my email over and over again :') While you read that little portion;) LOL

Fail P-Day :(

I guess you could say that today just was not my day :( I started off the day with walking to work in a rainy, windy, cold weather. I solely believe that a persons mood can depend on the weather, because that was SO me today:'( All I wanted to do was stay home, sleep, and...cry</3

But then I remembered...it was MONDAY! Monday=my missionary has a break, my missionary can finally email me back, my missionary can relax a bit, my missionary can send me a letter and photos etc. The day I was finally waiting for since I dropped him off at the MTC has arrived :')

I went to work and then school waiting for that email to show up in my inbox...it didn't come. I went back to work and waited some more and it still didn't come. An hour passed and then another hour and so forth. Before I knew it, it was already 6:00p and time for me to close the clinic up and leave for home. I finally accepted that I wasn't going to get anything today :'( I cried...all the way home, even now as I write this, I'm crying.<|3 It's just hard because I depended on today to give me the satisfaction that my missionary was okay, that other Elders were being nice to him, that he was being nice to all of them too. Lol (Wow, I put an LOL,haha)

I remember when he first got his call, that he and I set up his email. This was back in January...I reminded him to not forget his password. But of course that didnt happen. It wasnt until a few weeks before he reported that he tried to log in again but it didnt work. His uncle who previously served a mission said that once he got to the MTC that they could figure it out and fix it for him. But obviously that didnt come out the way we wanted:'(

This seriously sucks, I just want someone to tell me that he's okay. I want him to know that I miss him and love him:( I want to tell him everything and anything I want just because I can, but I can't. Heres to another lonely week.

I love you Elder Fitisemanu:') Please fix this asap.

Love,
Your crybaby girlfriend(or in your words, your wife) waiting:'(

Easy Like A Sunday Morning

I didnt get a chance to blog yesterday so I am doing it today. Lol

Sunday was spent running errands and going to church:)<3 Then we had a family get together, which was exactly what I needed. Guess where it was though?

PROVO, UT

Yeah exactly. My grandma called while I was there, now thats what I call a grandmothers intuition.lol I sat outside and cried for a bit before I went back in. Its always good to be around and/or talk to family<3 I know I wouldn't trade mines in for the world.

I seriously wish that everyday were Sunday<3 Something about having the spirit throughout the entire day makes everything better. You're probably saying "Uh you should ALWAYS have the spirit with you." True, but how many of you can honestly say that every where you go and everyone you see gives off the spirit?

One Sunday down to General Conference<3 Yay to Sunday blessings:')

See & Feel The Blessings

 For all you girls going through what I am going through, I have found a GREAT coping method :) The things that has helped me so far is my support team, I believe that every person going through this process needs to surround themselves with supporting people!<3 I also found that writing him a letter/email  every day has helped me deal with this a lot...even blogging about it helps! I think that the most important thing to remember is that you really do need to take it a day at a time.Wake up in the morning happy and you will have a happy day. :) I found this saying and it couldn't be more true to me than it is now.

 Instead of expecting your day to be lonely or sad...think of this saying. There is something that can be good about a day, you just need to take it in and let good things happen. I realized that when I expect something good to happen everyday, it makes me happier and somewhat anxious to see what blessing Heavenly Father has in store for me that day! I find something good about the day and I tell my elder about it and of course my blog. Anything that inspires you, touches you, makes you smile, write about it! Then when those sad days come (because I know they will) You can go back and read about it<3 it could be the simplest thing but it makes the day go by a little better:) 

Just 2 more days til I can hear back from my Elder and I am so excited! :) I look forward to seeing what my Heavenly Father has planned for me today, tomorrow and on Monday<3 So far, so good. 

God is Good<3

Words Of Encouragement

A girl came up to me at school and gave me the biggest hug. I was caught off guard for a moment but realized it was a girl named Megan, who used to be in one of my classes and it was a class that Kalani would always come and sit in to make sure none of my good looking guy classmates talked to me lol

When she let go she grabbed my hands and said "I heard that your missionary left and I just wanted to say that I am so proud of you. I know you don't know me but I know you.:')" I seriously almost started crying. She went on to ask how I was and we talked for a bit before I had to run off to class. The thing that stuck with me the most that she said was:

"Heavenly Father only chooses the strongest girls who can endure this wait and that is why Heavenly Father gave you Kalani now...BEFORE his mission. All the 'other' girls either write Dear John letters or find their missionaries AFTER their mission. God knows and loves you so much and I admire your strength. You're a chosen one."

After she told me that, it made me think a lot about how true that was. I never thought of myself of someone strong, even though people tell me that I am all the time. I guess I just do what I have to do and if I gotta cry along the way, I do. But I feel like Heavenly Father sent that girl to me to tell me exactly what I need to hear exactly when I needed to hear it:') 

I love this gospel so much and am so grateful for the friends and family who are going through the same "mission phase" as me<3 It's so nice to know and talk to people who understand what I'm going through<3 I love my support team and I cant wait to be that same kind of support for another girl :')

Koda Bear

Everyone meet Koda Bear :) Elder Fitisemanu got him for me last year on our anniversary and I've loved him ever since;) Lol

Last night I had a hard time falling asleep, crying of course didn't help and then I got a knock on my door. My cousins wife came in and I tried to stop crying but I think it was too late for that. :/ She was bringing Koda in and said "Here, I thought you would need this:)" Haha I was so embarrased. Yes, having Koda hold me while I fell asleep made it better...don't judge me:) 

I went to work today and my coworkers were there greeting me with smiles and 21 questions about my trip. Lol A coworker of mine who isn't even a member has even coached me to smile and its helped me get through the my work shift! 

Then I came to school and the support from my classmates and friends has been so overwhelming:') I honestly didnt expect so much love and open arms when I got back and I think its just a reminder from God, that I am always loved, even in places I least expect it<3

I didnt expect to genuinely smile today, infact I expected to cry...a lot. But to my surprise I didn't shed one tear yet!:) Then when I got to school, it was there waiting for me in the Commons. What I waited for ever since I moved up to Utah:') After I got it, I quickly shot an email to my Elder to explain the great news. I remember that last time he and I talked about it, he broke down and couldnt stop telling me of how proud he was of me:') So of course when I got it I teared up a bit. I cant wait for him to see it and get happy just like I did. Okay okay okay, what is it? It's this...

Yes, I got my cap and gown:) Its one step closer to graduating from the school I love just as much as Kahuku..which is a lot. I remember when I called Elder Fitisemanu the day I turned in all my forms for graduation and he was driving around yelling "MY BABY'S GONNA BE A COLLEGE GRADUATE!;')" Haha he even stopped to tell homeless people!:) Lol I know that if I keep doing what I'm supposed to do that things will only go up<3

This accomplishment is just one goal closer to serving a mission! August 12, 2012 is the day I can FINALLY turn in my papers...so look out world! This girl is coming to rack up those members<3

One Step Closer To Eternity*

The day we were all waiting for has finally arrived<3 Elder Fitisemanu went into the MTC today:') I have learned 2 things in the past 6 hours of dropping him off and that is this:

1. Sacrafice. I had to let go of a best friend who I'm so used to seeing pretty much 24/7 to not seeing him at all. The guy who seriously had my back through everything, even things he didnt want to be part of just cause he loved me that much. But I've recently learned that this sacrafice is so minor compared to the Lords. A good friend, Elder Feaga'i, who is also serving in Apia Samoa, said in his farewell talk: "Missionaries are those who sacrafice time with their families so that others can be with theirs for eternity." Which is so true and easier to accept. I know that in the long run, this little sacrafice will bless not just me but the both of us<3

2. Stength. I learned that I am stronger than I give myself credit for. When we said our goodbyes, it didnt seem as hard as I thought it would be. I honestly think I cried more at him being set apart as a missionary than saying goodbye to him today. Lol Is that bad? I've prayed that Heavenly Father would make it easy for us and He did<3 I won't lie, I cry every now and then but then I remember that He is where he needs to be and that he's doing this to better himself, which is all that I can ask for<3

It's not easy. People keep telling me that it will get better and I know it will. I thought letting go of my brother Elder Tiu Jr. Wesley last year was hard, now I gotta let go of this one!? Lol I know that some people have it harder than me, whatever the case may be, maybe even losing 'him' for this mortal life and not just 2 years and be that the case, I applaud you for being so strong.

Now that Elder Fitisemanu is there, I have grown to appreciate the little things. Things I took for granted, like him opening the door for me, or giving me flowers when I'm having a bad day, or getting me rocky road & watching red box movies with me when that time of the month comes lol, or just telling me that everything is going to be okay when he sees me stressing. I'm gonna miss that. A lot. 

But I know that my Father in Heaven loves me so much because when I worry about this missionary, He sends the spirit to comfort my heart and tells it that he will be watched over and protected always<3 :') This is just the first day, but its one day closer to eternity<3

Lasts < Firsts

Today is the last full day that I get to spend with Elder Fitisemanu and we spent it driving to Utah. With the  drive, it gave us both a lot of time to really ponder on what was going to happen over the course of these 2 years.

I've realized that theres a lot of lasts for us. Last hug, last kiss, last time holding hands, last a lot of things. Then theres our first...our first step to eternity<3 Which totally outweighs the Lasts. I feel so guilty for crying over not having the physical aspects of him with me like I'm used to:'( I knew this day would come and tried my best to prepare for it but let me just say...theres absolutely no way you can prepare for it.

Friends and family have been calling and texting me over the past few days to make sure I'm doing okay and I am so grateful for the love & support<3 It's sucks because when people ask me how I'm doing I choke up and just start bawling all over again. Lol So if you're reading this please don't ask me until you see a blog post of me saying that the coast is all clear and my tears have runned dry. Haha...seriously.

I know that this is the hardest part...is letting him go. I guess I need to get used to not having the freedom of    calling him when I get out of work and school or texting him when I feel like it. Thats it. But I'm ready for this whether I can handle it or not...I'm ready to take this on because like my Elder says, "This is for our future baby<3" :')


Tomorrow will be hard and so will the next few weeks, months, year, etc Lol Jk. I know that once I get over this it'll all be better:) There is no one else I'd give this guy up to than the Lord<3

Boyfriend To Missionary

I just got home from Kalani being set a part to be a full-time missionary and I seriously cannot stop crying:'( Some of the tears are sad, most of them are happy...I think its just a huge bunch of [bipolar] tears lol

When we got to the chapel, we were able to go into the room with him and the Stake President asked us each to give our testimony and advice for our Elder and oh my gosh, the spirit in the room was so overwhelming<3 As I think about it now, I get chicken skin all over and then the tears start flowing like nothing.

The Stake President began his blessing upon Kalani and then he said it, "I now ordain you to be a Full-Time Missionary for The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints." That was it...my boyfriend is now a missionary<3 He's not Kalani, not Hunny...he's now Elder Fitisemanu<3 :') After the blessing was complete, President Sears asked Elder Fitisemanu to bear his testimony and his words filled the room in an instant:') I'm so proud of him and the choice he's made to serve the Lord. I know that Heavenly Father is very pleased with him*

Now that I am here writing this, I've realized that things are very hard. Its like we can see eachother and talk but theres a glass seperating us to block a simple touch:'( The rules are hard but I know if we both abide by them we will be blessed.

These 2 years will be hard, I know they will, but I'm ready to face the challenges and blessings. <3

I love you Elder Fitisemanu, I'll be right here waiting for you:') <3

Farewell Sunday*

Today was Kalani's farewell & words cannot express the spirit that was present throughout today :') His ward started at 1 pm so we had all morning to prepare. I didn't get a chance to see him til we got to the chapel though & honestly, I'm glad that I waited.

When Kiana (Kalani's sister) & I arrived, Kalani hadn't arrived yet so we waited. Then, 10 mins later, he came. It was so special because he was wearing his suit, but instead of pants, he wore his sulu. His grandma gave him a beautiful white carnation lei that made added the perfect touch & made him look even more handsome<3 

Kalani's talk...wow, I cant even began to explain it. It's seriously one of those "you had to be there" moments. There seriously wasn't a dry eye in the audience<3 This guys testimony is truly amazing and everytime I hear him preach about his beliefs and the things/people he loves, I am literally speechless. :') I cannot believe that Heavenly Father made this guy for me<3 I am sooo proud of him and the choices he made thus far and I cannot wait to look forward on how his testimony will grow over the course of 2 years. 

I am so grateful for him and his example to serve our Lord. It hasn't really hit me that he's leaving yet and I know that when it finally does, that it will be hard! But I know it will be worth it<3 

"If You Can't Serve The Lord For 2 Years, You Can't Serve Your Wife For Eternity<3"